cancer, grace, My Cancer Journey, My Life

I Share A Very Intimate & Sacred Moment On My Journey With Stage 4 Cancer

The Preamble

My spouse Don and I are very committed to our date nights, which usually happen on a Friday night. We will do something like go out to dinner or spend time at our little lake house having dinner and spending the evening together while we enJOY our little fireplace and listen to music.

We look forward to these date nights immensely and we believe that they are so important for a relationship. And because we are both entrepreneurs and business-minded people, these become our business meetings too. We catch up on how things are going, what has been accomplished and what needs to be done. And trust me, we love talking about this kind of stuff. It brings us JOY!

A Week Ago Friday

So a week ago Friday, I was feeling great and pain-free and it was date night. I was so happy for one more date night! We were enJOYing our night when out of nowhere I started to get into pain and this pain escalated from 0 to 100 in an hour. It was really, really bad and it was really, really, sad.

The Sacred Moment in The Still of the Night

This brings me to the sacred and intimate moment. Don tried to help me get into bed and into a comfortable position. I sat on the edge of the bed and hung onto him. I wrapped my arms around his body and laid my cheek against his stomach and chest. He tried to put me down but I would cry out in pain something like “You have to get me up, I can’t breathe”. The pain was unbearable and would take my breath away. This went on for a while until we were indeed able to get me into bed. This was very hard for both of us and I cannot describe the feeling with words but…..

Speed Ahead to the Following Friday

Last night was once again date night and although I was in pain, it was not too bad. We had a lovely night together. The topic of last Friday night came up and how hard that was for us. Don shared about how he struggled with it and the pain that it brought him.

And Then I Shared This:

I told him that I wanted him to know that when I am gone or whenever he thinks of that night, he needs to know that for me it was one of the most beautiful, loving, supportive, and intimate moments of my life and that I will forever cherish it. It has become a beautiful moment for me. The whole vulnerability for both of us and the sacred connection of two lovers coming together in a time like this is indescribable.

We then talked about how we can indeed shift things to see them from a better place that makes us ‘feel better’ and this is what we had now done with this experience. We can choose what we take from it. This is all a part of accepting ‘what is’ and moving through it with Grace.

I hope that you too learn to shift painful moments in your life and turn them into Grace.

I love you all!

2 thoughts on “I Share A Very Intimate & Sacred Moment On My Journey With Stage 4 Cancer”

  1. i can not deny that my heart is in despair!!! I think of you often, prayer for you always and i with my faith know that better things are to come..i am sending you all my love and yur outlook,inspiration to all of us and the love you share is so admirable..you my friend as i have thought of our past as friends andhanging out and what you during this journey, has left a huge imprint on my heart. should you need me for anything i am here please just call..you have my number.

    with every prayer and love sent your way..

    Janice xx
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