cancer, grace, My Cancer Journey, My Life

I Share A Very Intimate & Sacred Moment On My Journey With Stage 4 Cancer

The Preamble

My spouse Don and I are very committed to our date nights, which usually happen on a Friday night. We will do something like go out to dinner or spend time at our little lake house having dinner and spending the evening together while we enJOY our little fireplace and listen to music.

We look forward to these date nights immensely and we believe that they are so important for a relationship. And because we are both entrepreneurs and business-minded people, these become our business meetings too. We catch up on how things are going, what has been accomplished and what needs to be done. And trust me, we love talking about this kind of stuff. It brings us JOY!

A Week Ago Friday

So a week ago Friday, I was feeling great and pain-free and it was date night. I was so happy for one more date night! We were enJOYing our night when out of nowhere I started to get into pain and this pain escalated from 0 to 100 in an hour. It was really, really bad and it was really, really, sad.

The Sacred Moment in The Still of the Night

This brings me to the sacred and intimate moment. Don tried to help me get into bed and into a comfortable position. I sat on the edge of the bed and hung onto him. I wrapped my arms around his body and laid my cheek against his stomach and chest. He tried to put me down but I would cry out in pain something like “You have to get me up, I can’t breathe”. The pain was unbearable and would take my breath away. This went on for a while until we were indeed able to get me into bed. This was very hard for both of us and I cannot describe the feeling with words but…..

Speed Ahead to the Following Friday

Last night was once again date night and although I was in pain, it was not too bad. We had a lovely night together. The topic of last Friday night came up and how hard that was for us. Don shared about how he struggled with it and the pain that it brought him.

And Then I Shared This:

I told him that I wanted him to know that when I am gone or whenever he thinks of that night, he needs to know that for me it was one of the most beautiful, loving, supportive, and intimate moments of my life and that I will forever cherish it. It has become a beautiful moment for me. The whole vulnerability for both of us and the sacred connection of two lovers coming together in a time like this is indescribable.

We then talked about how we can indeed shift things to see them from a better place that makes us ‘feel better’ and this is what we had now done with this experience. We can choose what we take from it. This is all a part of accepting ‘what is’ and moving through it with Grace.

I hope that you too learn to shift painful moments in your life and turn them into Grace.

I love you all!

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By The Grace of Life…..

There are many definitions of ‘Grace’ but to me, Grace is about honoring my soul and letting it flow through life. It is a divine expression of who I am and I know that my soul in eternal.

I like to think that I am in the playground of life, expressing myself, with Grace, and flitting like a butterfly, from moment to moment.

In life, Grace leads us to precious moments that often come through life’s trials, tribulations, and heartaches but is not to be taken lightly.

For example, one often learns the preciousness of life’s gifts through grieving the loss of loved ones. Things we once took for granted become even sweeter and more precious to us. This is a form of Grace.

Grace is the ebb and flow of all of life. It is the wind that blows through and dances with the branches of the tree, it is the sun glistening upon the water, it is the energy in these words as I type them, it is the gentle rain that bounces off a tin roof…. it is all of that and more….

Grace is the flow of life and the dance of the soul.

When we are open to the Grace of Life, we feel and experience life. We open our hearts to deep, deep, levels that are profound. We then truly ‘live’ and are ‘alive’.

What if we took our darkest moments and allowed them to show us the Grace of Life? What if we used them as catalyst to show us how Grace has moved us and then perhaps we would better understand why we ‘feel’ so much. We then might become enamored with our passion and our feelings and our zest for life.

I for one, now see how all of life’s moment’s both painful and JOYous have led me to Grace. Grace is life being life. Grace is life flowing through and for me.

Grace is the wind in the wings of the soul and it is a beautiful thing….

In closing, I hope that you too, enJOY the Grace of Life and that you allow life to flow through you through all of the moments, in good times and bad, and that these moments enhance your sweetness of life.

In Grace and with much LOVE to all,

Maggie

Side Note: After writing this piece I realized that Grace and Gratitude MUST be tied together because it just seemed like it should be. And they are. After Googling, I found this and thought “WOW”… “We can gloss over the meaning of gratitude as simply “giving thanks”, but Gratitude is derived from the Latin word “gratia” which means gratefulness – but also grace or graciousness depending on the context. … There is true grace in Gratitude:”

That got me thinking and is a whole other blog post 🙂 Have a great day my friends!

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