cancer, My Cancer Journey, Vulnerabitlity

Being Vulnerable

 “I do not believe that sheer suffering teaches. If suffering alone taught, all the world would be wise, since everyone suffers. To suffering must be added mourning, understanding, patience, love, openness, and the willingness to remain vulnerable.”
Anne Morrow Lindbergh, ‘Gift From The Sea.’


Vulnerability is a new experience for me and I will be writing about it more. It is interesting how life’s palette holds many teachings as we journey through the years.

I do not yet have words to describe how I feel and how to share my vulnerability at this time but stay tuned, I am hoping to share soon.

I love you all…..

self-love, Vulnerabitlity

My Feelings Around My Weight Gain

So I often write about sunshine and light and warm and happy things, but today I want to talk about a revelation I had and it is about ๐Ÿ††๐Ÿ…ด๐Ÿ…ธ๐Ÿ…ถ๐Ÿ…ท๐Ÿ†ƒ,

I have recently gained some extra extra weight lol. I am not sure how much as I do not weigh myself, or at least not often, but you know you know when you know.

And the biggest way I know, (no pun intended – biggest way I know ha ha ) is by how uncomfortable it feels.

Now I don’t beat myself up about this gain because I know that does not help and will just make me feel worse and you know what happens when you feel worse… it gets worse. Like attracts like ๐Ÿ™‚

But the point of my blog post today is about the revelation.

The Revelation

Here is the scene: I woke up around 5 am and knew that I wanted to go back to sleep. Sometimes when this happens I will listen to a hypnosis meditation for sleep on Youtube. I have my favs.

Anyhow when I opened the APP, there was one up in my suggestions and it was for weight loss and sleep. I thought “Cool – perfect – double whammy :-)” and I grabbed my head phones and put that one on. It was by BlueSky Hypnosis and it was the first time I had listened to any of his work. And I loved it!

It worked great. I had the best sleep ever and woke up feeling amazing. I will share the link at the end of this blog if you are interested. Anyhow, later in the morning when I was doing my daily studying of things for my self-care and the feeding my mind with positive stuff, I listened to another one of his recordings….

Heaviness & Darkness

In this one he talked about weight being heavy and dark and about foods that are not alive and that they are dark and heavy and dead. As a Nutritionist I know this but it really hit me in a new way today because I could relate. I could relate to the heaviness and the darkness as to how extra weight feels and how we carry emotional weight around it too!

A window opened up for me in my mind and it goes along perfectly with my own philosophies about losing weight, getting healthier, or making any positive changes in our lives. They must be done with JOY!

They must be done with an open and airy feeling, not heavy and dense. And when we change to this frequency we feel better and we attract more of that which is alive and airy and free~ We then are attracted to foods that are full of life and vibrant and we are happy to walk and exercise and enJOY the outdoors while we do them. ๐Ÿ™‚

This whole revelation made me happy and to smile and to feel lighter and it also inspired me to, with JOY, move toward being physically lighter. It excited me!

I am also proud of my own vulnerability and my courage to share this here. When we can get vulnerable and let go of our own judgments towards ourselves, that too is light and airy! Judgment is heavy and dense. ๐Ÿ™‚

Thank you for being here with me today as I enJOY being a Badass. ๐Ÿ™‚

โ€œPeople who wade into discomfort and vulnerability and tell the truth about their stories are the real badasses.โ€ – Brene Brown

Wow even this vulnerability thing is starting to feel light and airy. Woo Hoo! ๐Ÿ™‚

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